Yes, yes... I know "wtf man!? you announced your return from a previous hiatus and then had another longer one!?" first of, sry... secondly, with the way things are shaping up in my personal life, expect a rather more... sporadic... upload schedule from now on (I'd rather not go into too many details).
That being said, this weekend I finally to get some spare time to do the things that I like and in having that spare time I decided to, besides making this post, see if there was anything good on Steam for a few bucks, To my delightful surprise, Resident Evil 4 (the HD re-release) was on sale for only 7€ so i decided to give it a go and let me tell you... I FUCKING <3 IT !!!
Personal Backstory
To give you some context, I borrowed the original RE4 way back in the day from a friend of mine for PS2 and being the little dumb, ignorant kid that I was at the time, I didn't like it at all. The reason for this is that I was so accustomed to happy platformers and maybe the occasional hack and slash, but that was the first time I ever played a horror game by myself. I remember watching my cousin play the first RE on PS1 when I was something along the lines of seven or eight... that scene were the first zombie is chomping down on that one guy (Kenneth, I think ??) and slowly turns around facing you... that shit seriously scarred me for many years. So when my friend told me that I had to play RE4, and that it was the most awesome game ever, I was, reluctant, to say the least... but I gave it a go.
So I got home and started the game and as soon as the announcer, I guess (??), says Resident Evil 4 all of those memories of the first one so, so may years prior to that day came flooding back into my mind and I immediately had an anxiety attack... yeah, that's how much of a pussy I was xD Nevertheless, I decided to push on as much as I could stomach but I would panic at the sight of every enemy and just unload every round I had into them which in turn resulted in me not having any ammo when I really needed it.
The Game That Made Me <3 Horror
So fast forward a couple of years and there were some rumours going around about a game that was so scary that people supposedly had nightmare for weeks after playing it, as you've probably already figured out, those rumours were about Amnesia: The Dark Descent. Cut to me trying to be a badass (about 14 or 15 years at the time) told my friends that I could beat it without even braking a sweat, this in turn resulted in a dare between me and a friend who happened to own it, in order to see if I actually could beat it. Five hours worth of playtime (over the course of two or three weeks) and a plethora of paranoia and nightmares later, I beat the game and in that moment when I managed to beat it, I realised that horror games aren't as scary as I thought they would be (this was, in hindsight, due to the fact that I got desensitised by the game) and I started looking for other horror games that I previously hadn't been able to play due to my fear. So in essence, I wouldn't love the horror genre as much as I do today if not for that friend and A:TDD
The only game I wasn't able to find at retailers at that point, or second-hand stores for that matter, was RE4 and it has been on my shelf for far too long... until now...
Initial Feelings
Booting up RE4 for the first time in ages, I gotta tell you, I was a bit anxious... childhood trauma, you know... but once I got about half an hour into the game, all that anxiousness was completely gone and was having a blast as I was blasting zombies left and right. Every so often when I took the occasional break, I started thinking; why was this game so hard for me back in the day? I might be getting a bit philosophical in the next section, so if you don't wanna read the ramblings of an idiot, feel free to skip over it...
Philosophy Session
My thoughts are that as gamers, we evolve and branch out to other genres that we usually wouldn't care about and in doing so, there comes a point where you've basically seen and experienced everything that the gaming world has to offer at a certain time. This is noticeable when seeing people play different genres of games, someone like me back in the day who mostly played platformers are very proficient in that genre and can play through a game like Super Mario Bros. The Lost Levels without losing a single life, but can't aim in FPS games for the life of them, and it's sort of the same principle when it comes to game design, whether you're consciously aware of that or not. For me and horror games, now I'm at the point where I basically know all of the common tropes and also I'm really quick at noticing patterns in horror games so I'm more or less prepared for jumpscares and whatnot when they appear. Shameless self-promotion aside, it's more or less the same thing for any gamer who've played alot of a certain genre.
Perspective (a.k.a; Ramblings)
Anyway... after playing through A:TDD and learning how to dodge damage from enemies in a game that doesn't have any way for you to defend yourself other than throwing chairs at the enemies in order to stagger them, I was now armed with the basic knowledge and skill of doing that in other horror games (yes, I know it's not the same for every game, because mechanics, but you get what I mean), I also understood the concept of ammo preservation and how to do that based on other contextual scenarios, so in essence, I was now fully prepared to tackle RE4.
One prime example of this, and this is gonna be a 'no shit' thing for most (if not all) of you reading this, is that when I played RE4 and came to an open space, my horror senses tingled and I expected either a fight, an ambush, or a larger monster and most of the time, I was right on the money... but it still had it's fair share of surprises. A specific one is coming up, but since I'm not too savvy with either HTML or CSS, I can't figure out how to make spoiler redaction paragraphs, it will instead be under a separate headline, so feel free to skip over the next paragraph.,, SPOILERS INCOMING!!
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There's a specific part at the end where one of the most horrifying enemies in the game (Regenerador) is hiding in a cell and it's really easy to run past it, you can still hear the breathing of it when getting close to the cell, but since I was playing it very late at night and because I live in an apartment, I had to have the volume very low so as not to disturb my neighbours, I didn't notice the sounds. When that fucker jumped on me from behind and started chomping down on my neck, I could feel my heart skip a beat... I love that epic feeling :3
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The Hidden Mechanic of Resident Evil 4
The game has a very hidden feature that I didn't know about before I looked it up... it dynamically changes the difficulty depending on how good you are at it. I'm not saying this in the sense that "Look at me, I exclaim this because I'm so good at the game", no, it's actually noticeable when playing. At a certain point in, I noticed that the zombies were able to soak up a fuck-ton of damage when compared to each level prior to that point and my first instinct was that "oh, it's clearly part of the non-changing difficulty curve since I'm farther into the game", but no... the game adjust it's difficulty according to your performance. So I started experimenting and intentionally dying... surprise surprise... the enemies got weaker every time I died and continued. This, of course, means that you can manipulate the game into being easier at certain points such as bosses and whatnot, but if you do that, then I feel like you're doing yourself a huge disservice since whatever difficulty you're at (after maybe an hour or so into the game) is tailored to your own level of skill in the game. That being said, if were talking about speedrunning the game, then I completely understand the act of manipulating the "difficulty adjustment" to your favour in order to shorten the time when killing bosses and such.
Conclusion
All in all, after revisiting this game with more experience of horror games, I absolutely adore it. As of writing this, I've finished the main campaign on professional difficulty and I'm playing the second and third one... I'll probably continue playing this game until 100% completion, I'm that in love with it :3
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